Killing Spree

Suicide. An act which according to many religions is direct one way ticket to hell. This is a topic which comes up many times in numerous conversations. People have contradicting views on suicide. Are the people who kill themselves cowards or are the greatest models of unrivaled bravery?

Death is undoubtedly the number one fear. Every human being at one point of time is scared of death. So, are these suicidees(a coined term for convenience) really so courageous that they conquer the number one human fear? This question is truly bewildering. Personally, it does not matter whether these suicidees are plain rats or heroes of the world. For me they are nothing but murderers, Weapons Of Mass Destruction who for their own personal ends have ended the existence of millions gazillions of souls.

WMD's!!!You must think I have gone crazy. But there is truth in this in the deepest most profound sense which we know but never realize.

Let me put it in a sentence and elaborate on it later "When you kill yourself, in essence you have destroyed the existence of more than 1000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 raised to the same number of souls"

Now you must think "Where in the heck did this freak come to this conclusion?". I shall of course answer this. It may be convincing if you change your idea of existence to cover a broader spectrum.

Let me begin with the beginning of life on earth, yes, life on earth. Have you considered what precision, what perfection it must have taken for life to prosper on our tiny planet earth. For the big bang to take place, for the solar system to form, for the earth to be just at the right distance, for some supernovas to take place, for stars to shine, for no other cosmic disturbances, for a comet as big as mars to come hit the earth at the correct time and give rise to the moon, for a number of meteorites, heavenly bodies to collide and bring several life sustaining chemicals, for the core, mantle and crust to be formed, for the first cyanobacteria to be formed. The probability is unimaginable!!!

Now, the story does not stop here. Now its time to move from small to big. For the cyanobacteria to be exist it took the right carbon compounds, the right amino acids, the rite chemicals. Then, these cyanobacteria evolves, slowly steadily, into more complex organisms. For the formation of such complex organisms, proteins are formed. To form the right proteins it is a game of probability in epic proportions. Let me give an example, to produce one essential proteins it is required to have a chain of 1055 amino acids in just the right link up. In other words, you have to get all 7 on a slot machine having 1055 screens to win a gamble of one protein! Now, you require several such proteins in the process of evolution. Even if one such protein gone berserk would endanger our very existence, since proteins essentially give DNA. One mistake and we may end up having one too many legs! Now, all said and done, first human is born. You must think "Phew! Thats over with!". But you are gravely mistaken. Here comes another set of mishaps. Not as exponentially huge as the previous two epics, but enough to add some 5-10 "zero's" in the probability figures. The probability of your existence is still meek, your ancestors were lucky enough not to be killed by the harsh conditions over the next 15000-20000 years. Thats more than 400 generations. The right mate, the right genetic make up, the right environmental conditions over the next 400 plus generations finally gave rise to a wonderful, beautiful baby-YOU!

I do not know what force, what divine presence gave rise to such a probability and finally gave me, you, all of us living a chance to exist, to breathe, to live. We have been chosen over more than millions trillions gazillions suitable candidates who could have been in our place. But, fate had other plans and we were allowed to pass through the gateway of life.

Now, coming back, all these suicidees when they kill themselves not only take their own life but have taken away the chance of so many souls who could have been in their place, who could have done something better, who were not given the chance to exist. Is this not injustice? Is this not mass murder of hopes, dreams, aspirations, souls as a whole. Is this not a hellish act, condemning so many for the need of one?


It is not only suicide that I condemn. I also feel people who waste their life away slowly killing themselves over time are in a way the "little" suicidees. For, they are wasting away the gift of life. A gift so precious that we could not possibly perceive. It is beyond our purview of prescience. It is truly the most wonderful, beautiful, astounding and the least understood phenomenon-LIFE!!!

One more thing that the suicidees and the "little" suicidees do is devastate their loved ones. Many of who spent the rest of their of life in despair taking away their purpose of life. Destroying all their hopes and dreams. Some of these people are so disheartened that they are nothing but empty shells. Now, the suicidees have condemned the destiny of even more humans and the souls connected to these humans.

So, all you suicides when you think of killing yourselves, remember how many people you are, though not literally, killing. Its as if you are a walking talking hydrogen bomb set loose in the spirit world. With its aftershocks reverberating in the real world on your loved ones. You are literally on a killing spree. You think "I am not hurting anyone else!". Think again.

Just to give you an idea how rampant the suicidees have become, let me give the statistics of 2004 by WHO-Almost 1 Million people kill themselves every year, almost double the number of people who die by homicide(500,000) and almost four times the number that die by war(230,000).

So does it really matter if these suicidees are brave or cowards? Does this question really hold any importance considering the havoc they cause? Is this even mildly relevant?

Its unto us to decide whether we want to bring purpose to our life or destroy it and obliterate 999,999,999,999,999,999,999,999,999,999 raised to 1000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 souls in the process. Its a responsibility that is part of gift of life. Lets respect that and live happily.